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12月22日 打台球今天不爽，去打台球，在我定的规则下（我打时白球可以随便放），还是输了，哎
大家都没错，沟通不够嘛。突然发现自己老是活在幻想中，觉得一切应该如何如何运行和发展，这里检讨一下，以后除了重大事情再也不plan了，太伤元气，还很有可能被扼杀在婴儿状态。从此要脚踏实地，从明天开始好好找工作，hoho 12月18日 What a wonderful world!听到这首熟悉的歌，心情一下子平静起来。 what a wonderful world 12月15日 All is over.Everything is over. Everything. Not just the application. I feel tired and guess I need some rest.
I knew there would be an outcome, but I didnt expect it came in this way and turned out to be such kind of result. This noon was the application deadline for 2 of my applied universities.I got up at 9,turned on my laptop,checked my email,then I saw the shock news. I wept for almost 2 hours, meanwhile I had to keep myself sober to finish my online application,which would determine my future. It was so hard!
To be rational, I admit the result is the best for me and I should thank god for not putting me into big trouble, but I still feel sad. Does rationality make any sense in this kind of things? It's just like the pure dream of a little girl was suddenly broken by reality. I dont like this kind of answer, an answer that means nothing: No end while no hope.
Though I'm always hesitant and think a lot before making a decision,once I make it,I'll never change my mind.I'll cherish what I have regardless of what I might have if I choose another. Unless...miracle. Unfortunately, I believe fairy tale and so many miracles has happened. I have a intuition that this thing hasnt come to an end yet.Let's see how the story goes...But there is one thing I can promise, I will protect people who care about me.Same with him,hehe,but I'll do it better.
I still feel bad. But just let me be like this for a while, I know I can revive in sadness. Xu sent me the following song, and I played it for a mountain of times. Why it describes what I wanna say so perfectly?
<White Flag>
by Dido
I know you think that I shouldn't still love you
I'll tell you that But if I didn't say it Well, I'd still have felt it Where's the sense in that? I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender There will be no white flag above my door I'm in love and always will be I know I left too much mess
And destruction to come back again And I caused nothing but trouble I understand if you can't talk to me again And if you live by the rules of "It's over" Then I'm sure that that makes sense Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender There will be no white flag above my door I'm in love and always will be And when we meet
As I'm sure we will All that was then Will be there still I'll let it pass And hold my tongue And you will think That I've moved on Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender There will be no white flag above my door I'm in love and always will be I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender There will be no white flag above my door I'm in love and always will be I will go down with this ship And I won't put my hands up and surrender There will be no white flag above my door I'm in love and always will be 12月1日 写给吴想起今年她的生日我还因为过的糊涂发短信发错了日期就觉得过意不去。今天心血来潮用网络给她打了个电话，居然一猜就知道是我，太神奇了（同屋的一人也试skype结果男朋友愣是半天没听出来）今天高兴，贴篇她高中毕业时给写我的一篇文章，感叹真不愧是了解我呀。
枫 她说她最喜欢枫叶，是那种红成一片的五角形的叶子，没有任何原因任何余地的喜欢，甚至可以用爱来形容。事出总有因，我想也许是她和枫有着很相似的地方，她才会如此钟爱那秋天小小的精灵吧。特别而又普通，独立却又依赖，奇怪的但很轻易就融进了她的性格。于是，她喜欢别人叫她“枫”，她也用“枫”当作昵称上网。 对于已有四年网龄的她，上网实在是件很吸引的事呢。她可以一泡就是一天，可以在网上胡乱灌水，也拥有自己的网站——红枫客栈。可她更是一个好的听众，一个柔和中带点野性的女孩，一个可以轻易为别人付出自己感情的人。在现实中，她实在很小，无论身材抑或是年龄，可是在网上，她却总爱充当大姐大，去安慰别人。很多网友怀疑她的年龄甚至是性别，虽然她从不隐藏什么。不过，这似乎让她看到了自己的另一面——她曾说过，每个人都拥有多重的性格，只不过有的人直到死还没有机会窥见自己的另一面。那么，网络的虚幻便成就了她的这种机会。其实，在她乖巧的表面下隐藏的性格是自信的甚至是狂妄的，却又那么恰到好处。 枫很喜欢钱，是真的喜欢，连她大学想报的志愿都是经管，据说毕业以后“钱”途大好。不过她却不同于普通的拜金族，她很省，但她同样知道什么时候不应该省，而且她对朋友也决不吝啬。枫，其实有着相当广泛的爱好或喜好。她喜欢BSB，因为他们的和声很好听；她喜欢看书，看一切名噪一时的小说，但大都很失望——照她的话来说，是因为她自己就写得出来那种文章。是的，她的文笔很好……；她喜欢边看电视边吃东西边写作业，可往往进度最快的却是吃东西……；她喜欢艺术，也可以说是热爱——曾经在无数网上算过命：金牛座+O型血，结果总让她很兴奋：她属于那种适合搞艺术的人，因为她是一个感性的人，而非理性。是的，她是一个感性的人，她会因为网友的一封长信而哭上一夜，她会因为别人的一句话而影响自己的心情，她会因为朋友寄来的射雕漫画而激动三天，她会因为他人一个小小的承诺而认真地等待……太容易受伤，也太容易治愈。我已无法说清这到底是好还是坏了，反正她已经自得其乐地融入其中了。 枫，一个太简单却又太复杂的人呦。 |
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